its been a while
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Goodbye - Jagged Edge
Well, not much really has happened. I go to school, i come home, i go to work. the next day its the same and so on n so forth unless i have a day off then i go to school, come home. yea i have no life. Went to Cudahy's homecoming the Saturday before last and Greendales last Saturday. good times Good times. Good pictures too by the way.

School's not going so well... Got caught skipping 4th hour...Film As Lit. Boring class, the seniors in there suck, so I didnt go. Now Im grounded, again. Oops! Besides that I cant pay attnetion in school. I use it as a nap time basically. Oh well, Im passing.

Guy situation...confusing. People dont tell me how they feel, so here I am stuck wondering. Oh well what can ya do. Guys suck. They should really think about being normal...

Umm...i really dont know what else to say. Kinda in a bad mood, plus Im incredibly tired so i think im gonna go to bed! goodnight! :)

I smell like tanning lotion!
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Harder Everyday - Ashlee Simpson
Started my job at the tanning salon. Its very very boring, but I get to tan for free...so I dont mind!

Last friday I used the car. Took Amanda, Ashley, and Maria to the Whitnall game. It was fun. Saw Greg there :)! Good times...good times. Then I got in trouble for not coming home right after and not telling my mom where I went. Oops. My bad.

Ronnie (my littlest bro) got surgery yesterday. I got to stay home from school yest. and today! Good stuff. I cried though, cuz when he got back from the surgery he looked so sick. It was really sad seeing him like that. When he was all drugged up too...awe man. He was funny, but it was also really really sad.

I really should do my trig homework, but I dont want to. I HATE trig with a passion. Im such a slacker in that class, but on the good side of things, I'm geting a B. As long as I pass! the bad thing is...Im getting a D in Chemistry. Oh well...what can ya do!

Well im gonna go shower and maybe try to do my homework. Later

PeAcE

Knock Knock...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
Im in kind of a Bi-Polar not sure how to feel mood.

Well, its official...Courtney is leaving Oct. 1, 2, or 3. I'm sad. I joke about how me and Claire are gonna be in English alone, but I am honestly upset. Courtney is awesome...I really wish we could have become closer. Courtney, if you read this, I'm gonna miss you more than you know! When you come into town you better call me! :(

Work was a bitch today. I worked with Greg, which was fun because hes great, lol, but the new girl pissed me the fuck off. How long does it take to learn a register. I had to be right by her side while tried to make food. It sucked. And I was even more crabby because it was hot as hell becuase the air conditioner broke. Then she just stood there for half the day because shes stupid! BLAHHH. then she got sick and went home...which made me happy :) lol

My weekend in general sucked. I was grounded all weekend, but on a happy note, I get the car on Friday to go to the football game and whatnot. It should be fun, I hope. I really wish I could get my own car.

So, I got some pictures developed yesterday. Next time maybe Ill figure out how to use the scanner and Ill put some pics in here!

Im gonna go though, gnite!

Im so sick of being home!
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Smoke Two Joints - Sublime
Well, found out today that I'm ALREADY failin trig. I missed one assignment, which I did I just forgot to hand it in. There are only 3 assignments so I guess I can bring it up pretty easy. I hate school. I'm such a slacker. I can't pay attention in class. You should see my notebooks. They are full of half taken notes, then it drifts into my thoughts, sometimes little doodles, and some poems. My name is written a lot of times. In Trig the other day, I made a crazy picture of my name written in Rasta colors and some crazy background. I love it! Hung it in my room on my wall right above the picture of me and Kim.

Today, work was...well it just was. The new girl is...well how do you say it in a nice way...DUMB! I've met piles of rocks with more intelligence than that girl! She messed up like 47389047328947239 times and Jared was getting pissed and all she did was laugh. I was happy, though, when Greg came in. He's awesome. He was sick tho. I felt kind of bad, but he's the one that decided to come in.

I found a magazine that Bill was looking at. It was a used car mag. My mom said when she asked him why he was looking at it and he said "You know why..." So I think they are thinking about getting me a car. I still haven't driven, but I got insurance. Bill's never home so I cant use the car. Blah....I really need a car. But im outtie...gnite

My hair's a mess
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Better Off - Ashlee Simpson
So, I hate school....I cant STAND the people. Yelled at a sophomore today because she fuckin pushed me. She just kept walking tho. Fuckin bitches. I was crabby today from the start...today was not a good day to be in school.
I am so sick of having to push my way thru the hall to my next class. Im sick of putting up with all the fuckin giddy bitches in the hall. I hate my school with a passion. That is why I want to go back to Cudahy. The people there are SO much better. But of course my mom wont let me. Plus, Id feel bad leaving all the friends I did make here. I had so many friends in Cudahy though. I just want things back to the way they used to be.

On the other hand, Im not so happy with the rents. For one, they argue with each other about the stupidest shit. For two, they argue with me about the stupidest shit. For three, they are procrastinating on gettin me on Bills car insurance so I can drive the Blazer when Bills not using it until they fix the Camero. Another thing they are putting of. Oh yea I got my license which is why this all is tied together. I got my license last Thursday...that was the last time I drove. How much bullshit is that? But if I continue to complain they'll just tell me how spoiled I am and whatnot. Im sorry but I thought I got my license so the DIDNT have to drive me anywhere. I guess I just got it to spend 48 bucks on a card with my picture on it.

Another thing thats upsetting is...COURTNEY'S LEAVING ME!!!!!!!! Shes moving to Cali in October or something like that. One of the only people in my school that I can get along with and shes LEAVING! :( Im so sad!

But on a good note. I did ALL my homework...except my trig which ill do at lunch. this is a first since...uhh....8th grade?!

im outtie

...and i want you...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails
Ever wonder why you waste your time on things you know will eventually just...go...away? I do. And Ive been thinking about it a lot lately. Take, for instance, getting involved with people you know nothing will ever happen with. And no matter how much you go through with that person, in the end, it was all a waste of time. A WaStE! Its like you waste a whole summer to realize it was all just that...just one summer. Just one long downward spiral of regret. JuSt OnE. One summer, one person, and one thing that will never be the same. So why do we waste it on that? Because we are human. Always wishing, but always allowing the wish to not come true. The good thing is that we all get over it eventually. We will always have those memories. That's one thing you will always keep with you. But is that good or bad. You never get over people. Never...because you always have the memories. You dont stop thinking about it. Whether or not you want to, you do. Whether or not you hate the person. You will always remember how things USED to be. But you know that its gone. Its over. And it was a waste....my question, WHY?!

Sorry about that. Me being my stupid self again. But anyways...school started and it was a bitch. I hate school. I had a good/bad weekend. I went bowling with people from work both Friday night and Saturday night, but Saturday night we went back to Matt's house to play cards. Didn't get home till 4 am. Forgot my keys, so I had to wake my mom up. Needless to say, my mom was pissed and I am grounded. But oh well, my bad.

It was funny. Matt said that for being only 16 (he just turned 23) I'm pretty damn hott. And that if I was 18 hed try to "Holler at me". I laughed. It was cute in its own little way. Matt's a cutie. Too bad hes just not my type, I'm a minor, and he has a daughter. lol. well im gonna get on outta here.

School....blah
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Slow Jamz - Kanye West ft. Twista and Jamie Foxx
Well...Its been a few...not much has happened really. Except school starts tomorrow! Something I'm not entirely happy about. The only thing I'm lookin forward to at all is seeing a few friends I didnt see over the summer. Another year of using school as a naptime...of doing my homework the hour before it's due...of counting the hours it takes for my classes to end...of wishing it was summer. Honestly, I start my summer countdown n the first day of school. Along with Christmas vaca. and Spring Break. I just want it all to end. School...not my favorite thing to do with my life.

Yesterday, while I sat at work bored off my ass, my mom called. She said that Karen (a friend of the family) is opening up a tanning salon. I said that I cant quit on Jared. She said she just needs me to work once a week. So I agreed. I get a little extra cash for when I do stuff. So I really dont care. I'm gonna be a 16 year old girl holding 2 jobs while continuing to DESPISE school. Im not a slacker. I do what I need to do and I get things done. I teach myself out of text book. I pass all my classes and my GPA is, on average, a 3.0. I've been teaching myself out of textbook since I was in 4th grade. Thats when I stopped listening to teachers. Thats when teachers stopped liking me. If it weren't for teachers...I'd love school.

HAHA last night after work, Julie and I stopped up at some park to watch Jared and Greg and some of Greg's friends play basketball. Little did I know what friends Greg decided to play with. so we roll up and whos car do i see? Chads...of all people, they had to play with him. He wouldn't look at me. I guess he yelled at Greg for inviting me. Fuck that! I hate that boy...

Guilty Pleasure #6.) Shopping. I do it whenever I want. Especially when I'm stressed out. Not a good habit to get into. No wonder I never have any money. Oh well. What can ya do?

Im outtie!

InSoMnIa
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: Until I Get Over You - Christina Milian
Well..It's 7 o'clock in the morning. I didnt get home till 2:30 this morning meaning I got about 2 hours of sleep last night. Oh well, I'll just take a nap after my brothers football game.

Last night wasnt a bad night at all. First, I went school shopping. Got some new clothes and shoes. Then I came home and Kim picked me up. We went to the Chancery to visit Erika, then we went to Taco City because I wanted to say hi. Greg was working. Then we went to Taco Bell. Met up with the whole Cudahy football team. Then after that Kim and I went to the bowling alley where people at my work were bowling. Kim had to go home so I asked if someone would give me a ride home. Of course they would. WOOWOO! So I bowled with Michael, Greg, Matt, Jared, Julie, and Jennifer. I totally suck at bowling. After bowling, Greg brought me home. Good times...good times....

I was laying in bed for like a half hour before I finally fell asleep. The next thing you know, Im awake and I look at my clock and its quarter after 5. So Im like damn better go back to sleep. Yeah, that didnt happen. So I got up and talked to my mom (who was getting up to take my bro to his game). Now, here I am. I gotta go to my brothers game in like an hour so I figured Id kill some time and come online and write in my journal...but now Im outtie to take a shower....

As for the guilty pleasures....I didnt forget... I still gotta continue the list! BuhBye

Guilty Pleasures
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Just Let Me Cry - Ashlee Simpson
Guilty pleasures...everyones got 'em right? So I'm thinking, what are mine. How bout a list?

1.) Chocolate. Just about every girl's guilty pleasure. Sometimes I wonder if this "pleasure" is an addiction. I love chocolate. Luckily, I dont eat it so much that I'm fat.

2.) Caffeine. Coffee, cappucino, frappucino, expresso, soda, caffeine pills. Anything. Okay, I lied, not the pills, but everything else, yeah, I love it. Last night I made myself cappucino at 12:30. Needless to say, I didnt really sleep so much!

3.) Writing. I absolutely ADORE writing. Any type of writing. Get me paper and a pen and I will write SOMETHING down. Whether its the song Im listening to or my own poetry or just thoughts. Freewriting and poetry is my favorite.

4.) Singing. I can't sing to save my life. I don't really sing in front of people, except maybe if I'm at a party or something. Alone in my room...thats where I sing. Yes, I'm a dork, but I don't like my voice...Its embarassing!

5.) Degrassi. Another teen show that is very pointless, but you jsut gotta know what happens next...okay yea....I stay up late to watch it!!!

Phone.....

to be continued.......................

PiMp
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: I'll Make Love To You (its a classic) - Boys 2 Men
So today was a boring boring day. So was yesterday, so Ill start with yesterday.

I woke up, watched Dogma on Comedy Central, took a nap. Then, I woke up, watched TV. Then Bryan called and we went to the movies with Dustin and Toni (Dustin's girl). I didnt so much enjoy The Exorcist: The Beginning or whatever, but oh well. Then I came home, watched tv, talked to Bryan on the phone, talked online, then went to bed.

I woke up this morning...about 3 times. Once at 9:30, once at 10:30, and finally I stayed up at 11:30. Went shopping with my mom because today was Ronnie's birthday (my brother), got him a card, then came home and ate lunch. After lunch, I sat around and then went to work at 3. Got off work early at 8:30, came home and sang "Happy Birthday" to my brother, ate some cake, and here I am.

What a FUN-FILLED life I live.

The title of this entry is pimp because Jared (my boss) called me a pimp about 7349287392875 times today. K, so I exaggerated, but I got hit on by like 6 middle-aged guys at work today. Plus, we were talking about some other times I got hit on. I'm the fuckin Taco City pimp, I tell ya! Too bad the guys are all 40 and ugly and ew....I only wish they were hott guys my age. Too damn bad tho ryte?

Well i have nothin to say really...but ill probly write more tomorrow. CLOTHES SHOPPING ON FRIDAY! :):)